my dawg essays

my dawg essays OK... Im going to ask you to listen very carefully. Im going to be real straight forward here and I dont want you to think there is any underlying feelings here so take this word for word. The second worst thing you could do to me is not talk to me. The absolute worst thing you could do to me is not talk to me because u think Im mad at you. I understand you think that Im bitter about this but youre wrong. I guess youre not trying to talk to me about what happened between you and mike because u think Ill get mad or upset or you think it will hurt me. Actually you not talking to me about whats going on IS what is really making me so upset. You are compromising my integrity by thinking (after all the conversations weve had about this) that I would be upset at YOU about your decision to stay with mike. That makes me think, that you think, that I am just that shallow. You have to talk to me. I dont care how. I have so much respect for your painstaking decision that you had to ma ke about this, and Ive told u time after time that I wanted you to do whatever made you most happy. Even though (and I told myself I wasnt gonna say this) it really sucks for me. Another thing... we talked every night for about two weeks for hours on end, which did mean a lot to me... Then one day I get a 4 line E-mail that just scares and confuses the hell out of me. I send out a novel and dont hear from your for a week. I still havent heard from you. Now I know youve been sick and Im NOT mad. I just want you to know that the last week that I havent talked to you has really sucked for that reason. I have no idea if you miss me or not and I have to assume that you dont because youve made no attempt to talk to me. Right now I think you just want me to go away so you can just move on with mike or whatever. I dont und ...